"scary"

Jz get to know sth vy important abt someone n some stuff.. the answer tat i get is nt the answer tat i expected.. but for me is reali a shock n i appreciate wat i had heard.. but i reali scare.. scare to make the wrong decision again n again.. scare of fall down again n again.. i scare i cant even control it anymore.. coz almost kena heart attack.. since aft tat long time nv felt tis way dy.. but anyway everything also hv to be jz like wat i had planned.. final come first other thing come aft tat..